Temper, temper, temper

Ever wonder where did the title Volcano Rapper came from and what it exactly meant? Well, if you haven't read my friends' post about bestfriend I'm sure you have question marks popping all over your head right now lol~

If you haven't read it, too bad cuz my friend deleted or drafted it or whatever since it was a long time ago (not really)  but I'll be talking about it anyway. Soo, get ready to be boringfied (I guess that's a word since there's no red underline, I'm so cool haha)

People who know me know that I have this annoying attitude - bad temper. I won't deny it and I do realize that it has gotten worse for the last two years and believe me it's not that awesome to snap at everyone about little things. It's one thing about being snappy, blurting harsh words is another. Don't get me wrong, I don't curse in real life (except when I'm realllly angry) at people or things though I really feel like to.

Sometimes, I get too emotional (not the happy or sad or etc) over small things. When people ask me about things I answer it using my soo "emotional" tone which I usually do with my family. Trust me, I'm annoying.

Plus, when something doesn't go right, I'll get really pissed. There was one time I threw my phone's charger on the wall cuz it won't work and it ended up being smash to pieces. RIP charger. You've been 'useful.' Sometimes, during test, when I can't do the question I suddenly get this annoyed feeling suddenly. Since I can't do anything to calm myself down I just let out a loud sigh which can be heard by the entire class including the teacher ofc. 

You probably thought it can't be that bad. Well trust me, it ain't that cool. I made my friend cried and she was hurt and I don't even know how to apologise to her without getting annoyed since she was saying I'm mean and yada yada yada ~ I even made my mum cried because she was nagging me to do this and that so I snapped and because of that I got a lecture from my brother. If only I'm emotionless it'd be easier to hurt people's feeling and not feel guilty about it, too bad I'm not that emotionless. 

Sometime, I think its best for me to just keep myself away from the world (soo emosi eh ~) cuz I get angry by just looking at things that irritates me ; the girl that flirts with every guy she sees, the dude who's overly dress and the list goes on and on. I think I'm the one that's being irritating.

Since I made myself a promise this year, that is not getting mad at little things and learn just to let it go, I think I made myself some progress. That is until the day I realize it's not getting any better. Well, my promise did work a little but when the same thing annoy me again and again I end up exploding like a volcano. *sigh
That is so not cool, I'm worried that my temper will make my classmates hates me. If they're understanding like my friends (which are not around anymore), it'd be easier for me.

My mum said, I'm probably like this because I've had enough of people stepping all over my head when I was in primary school. People used to ask me do this and that but never had the courage to say no, or I don't want to. Well, I sure did more than stood up for myself.

Maybe next time when people ask me favour that I don't feel like doing, I should just put on my Grumpy Cat face and say..